Allison Holker says Stephen ‘Twitch’ boss visited family after his death

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Allison Holker reveals that she and her family have visited by Stephen ‘Twitch’ boss since he died of suicide in December 2022.

During a performance at Jamie Kern Lima Show Podcast, published on February 4, Holker said Boss first visited his days after he died.

“I’ve always had dreams since I was young who sometimes came to life, and I’ve had dreams that became very real,” Holker began and explained that she had “seen my children in my dreams before they were born. ”

“After Stephen had passed, I hadn’t slept in about four or five days, I think had gone at this time and my kids really didn’t have it,” she said. “Zaia cried hysterically, and it was supposed to be naptime, but she just couldn’t settle. She couldn’t sleep. ”

Holker said she went into her daughter Zaia’s room and added that her daughter was “very, very little” and “still tried to understand what had happened.”

“I closed my eyes, but I didn’t sleep yet, and everything started to shake in the room,” Holker said. “There was almost like the static you see on the TV behind my eyes, the black and white static, and I saw three faces. And I don’t know today what the other two faces were. But it was staticky between three different faces. ”

She continued, “At the end I held onto one of the faces, and it said, ‘I’m so sorry and I love you so much. I’m sorry. ‘And Stephen’s face disappeared. ”

After seeing Boss’ appearance, Holker said the two were finally able to take a nap, “The first time I slept … when everything had happened.”

“I woke up and I felt much more settled. I wasn’t healed or something similar, but I definitely felt he was watching us and looking for us, ”Holker said.

Holker told host Jamie Kern Lima that Boss has continued to appear to her and their oldest daughter, Wesley.

“There have been times when it has been really beautiful and there have been times when it has been a little scary,” she said, adding that she sometimes has to ask Boss to “give some space.”

“We know he is watching our family,” she continued. “I know Stephen always loved us and would always protect us. And no matter what way in his mind, he thought he did. ”

Although Holker said she has forgiven the boss of herself, she added, “I don’t know if I will ever forgive him for my children.”

Holker just published a memoir, “hereafter: My story of love, loss and embrace of the light” On February 4, 2025, as she has said, contains information from Boss’ journals.

Holker, who approached the setback from Boss’ family, she received after an interview where she talked about the book subsequently shared a long statement to her Instagram story.

“To fans of Stephen and our family and friends, I will be aware that my only intention of writing the book is to share my own story as well as part of my life with Stephen to help other people,” she said. “Like you, I never really knew what happened, and even when I try to put the pieces together, I never really want to know.”

“When I share, I hope they might catch some (of) the red flags that I missed before it’s too late,” she continued.